Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Relay For Life

This past weekend was Relay For Life. I love this cause!! I have been involved for 6 Relays now. This is my 3rd in charge of ceremonies. This year I felt like it was the hardest to deal with. I did have a few hurdles to get through. One being sickness and not feeling well at all and the other being opposition from people I didn't know. I felt very unprepared going into it on Friday night. I am so thankful for the people agreed to help my during the ceremony in speaking and as well as lighting candles. We had to do a little modifying of the script but it turned out really good. I am always hard on my self so I thought turned out bad. But everyone else thought it was good. After luminaria ceremony I was beat so I went back to the campsite and the owners of Subway had donated dinner to our team mates who were spending the night. So at midnight I was eating dinner. I slept a couple hours and then was back up and enjoying my day. It is such a huge party really. Maddy, Jasmin, and Elise did not sleep at all and danced all night I think.
On Saturday was the Fight back ceremony and it was such a great ceremony. Fierce Martial Arts Academy preformed and it was awesome and they have already been invited back to do next years ceremony. The rest of the day was just time for me to spend with my team. It was a great Relay.
I am so thankful to Heavenly Father for the strength to get through the weekend. I have been so sick and there was no way I could make it on my own and it was only through Him that I was able to do what I did for our community this past weekend. I love my community because they can come together and raise $62,000 to help Cancer patients and to help find a cure that one day Cancer will be a thing of the past. I love to see the community come together as a family to fight this horrible disease.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Old blog meeting new blog

May 20,2012

Lots of updates

Wow I haven't really posted in a long time. So much has happened around here. Things have been so crazy and busy. Which is nothing new!!! But anyway here goes!! I had my wisdom teeth removed two weeks ago.... Well that was the worst experience of my life. I have went through a lot medically wise but by far this is the worst thing I have ever experienced. So it started out with Shane telling me I need to go to the dentist. I HATE going to the dentist. So I went to Dr. Hall on a Monday and he said we really need to get those wisdom teeth out. I was like ok, then he referred me to an oral surgeon. I call to set up an appointment and they were like we can not get you in until June 7 for a consultation. June is not a good month for me to have that kind of procedure done. So Dr. Hall gave me another referral. We call the office and they were like be here Thursday for surgery. I had three days to get everything prepared for that day. But it was a major blessing that he got me in that fast. They told me I would be completely asleep during the procedure. I go in my nerves are mess. I go back to the room and sit down and the tv is on. Its on sports center. I really cannot handle sports especially if it is nothing to do with my kids. I was thinking well maybe they will let me watch something to relax. Well that was a big fat NO. The doctor comes in and starts the iv and then tells me this will not put you to sleep but you will not know anything is going on. Well I remember everything that happened in the room all the conversations between him and his assistant, everything said on tv, and everything going on in my mouth. Well the pain was horrible and I could not go to sleep. I didn't sleep at all on the way home from Indy or at all after the surgery. All day that day I just laid on the couch in pain..... Thankfully I had many people here to help. My mom took me to the surgery, my sister took care of Evan, my dad got the kids from school, my visiting teachers were awesome, many sisters called, sent texts, and emailed me to check on me. I am still numb on my chin. I was in a lot of pain for about a week. I had to go back because of it 4 days after the procedure and he really didn't help me at all. It was horrible... So glad I never have to do it again.
Shane had all of his top teeth pulled and now has top dentures. He is feeling much better and after the teeth were removed a lot of swelling in his body went down. He has more confidence as well.
Lis just finished another semester at Purdue and she got a promotion at her job. She has rented anapartment and will be moving next weekend. I am so proud of her. Its so crazy she isn't a teenager anymore.
Jalen just finished his track season. He had a good season and we know now that track is the sport he needs to improve in. But he had fun. He is getting ready for all his finals this week. He starts football and basketball conditioning as well soon.
Maddy is busy busy. She is a cheerleader now and will be going to camp in June. Its gonna cost mom and dad a lot of money and I am not going to lie I am completely stressed out over it. But I still am in disbelief she will be in middle school soon.
Jared has been complaining a lot about stomach pain and has been getting over heated a lot lately. He has missed a lot of school lately as well. He did not pass I read. I have my own opinion on that test but I am not going to go into that today. But anyway Shane and I came to the decision he is going to stay in 3rd grade again next year. This year has been a very rough school year and I think it will benefit Jared a lot if he just stayed back. He has some friends that will be in his grade so I think he will be ok. It was a very tough thing to do. I cried about it. He is my miracle baby and he has to fight all his life.
It has been a very sad week. A little boy I have been praying for passed away. Jackson was six years old. His parents went to school with me. He had a terminal brain tumor. It is just breaking my heart and my heart has been so heavy this whole week I cannot imagine the pain of the loss of a child. He was such a fighter and inspiration to our whole city.
The kids have 5 days left of school then we will have two months of fun!!! We are going to camp in the back yard, have bon fires, go swimming, play at the park, just do fun things. I love these kids that are mine biologically and the ones I am blessed with caring for. I am so blessed!!!!!

April 3, 2012

In Chaos I am at peace!!!

Well its a beautiful spring morning in Indiana!! I am writing this blog while sitting on the blog while sitting on the deck in the midst of the chaos of the six kids playing in the back yard. 4 of them are playing basketball two feet away from me with a volleyball off the roof of the house...... I am still trying to figure that one out...... Evan just fell off the big wheel and Elise can't get his shoe back on him is what she just informed me! The dogs are barking crazily!! But I wouldn't trade this life for anything. I love the sound of these kids having fun and enjoying the outside. And even with all the chaos I am at peace. Peace that only can come from Heavenly Father.
This past weekend was General Conference and wow what a blessing it was!! I prepared all last week for it in prayer and study. I wrote down some questions I needed answered. And wow they were answered.  During conference I was reminded my greatest calling was to be a mother. I knew this but I needed the reminder. I needed to remember to put this calling before my other callings in the church. Thank you Heavenly Father for the reminder. I learned so much and gave so many lessons that I am starting to work on now to improve my life and my family's life.
So one thing I am working on is cooking. I really don't know how to cook. Yes I am thirty and I don't..... I know basic things but I want to do more. So yesterday was my first time to cook with fresh garlic.... Well I didn't know what a clove of garlic was.. I know crazy right??? But I didn't so I thought it was the whole thing.... So I have tons of garlic now. I am glad I had an aha moment and looked up online what a clove of garlic was or my dinner would have been VERY garlicy and nasty.. But it turned out good. Now another new homemade meal tonight and I hope its just as good. I am trying to get away from processed foods and I am doing more fresh foods. We are not doing any canned food anymore. So I am doing more frozen veggies and fresh veggies and fruits!!!
I know some things in my life are not great but we are managing.... There is a plan and like I prayed this morning Heavenly Father knows my future and I would love to know what it holds for me but I know he will let me know when the time comes.... I am so blessed for I know who holds it!!

February 21, 2012


So yesterday I was out doing my grocery shopping. I had went to one store and had forgotten a few things. So I decided after the kids and I ate I would just run into the grocery store that was in the same plaza as the place we had lunch. So I run in and do my shopping and then I get up to the register and to realize I had left my rewards card in the car. (Which I totally hate having to use. But that's another blog for another day). Well anyway the cashier said well let me have your name and street and I will look it up which she had to do at the service desk. So as I am standing there I see a lady that I know. We exchanged hi's and how are ya's. Then she goes on with her business. Well as I am waiting I tell Maddy oh I forgot rice!! Next thing I know the lady's husband walks in and said "What is going to happen?" I say well I guess we wont eat rice. Haha. Well that wasn't what he was referring to. He was referring to something that really doesn't matter. It deals with a group we are both associated with. Nothing may change or a lot may change. But right now it doesn't matter.  I was more concerned about the rice I forgot.
I guess I am glad I can just put trivial things like that in my Heavenly Fathers hand and he will take care of it. Even little things like forgetting rice. I can move on and not fret over things and just move on with my life. I know things will work out and if they don't then they weren't supposed to work out. I am so glad that I don't have to carry the load on my own. I don't think I wanna. I love that I know he controls every moment of my day and life.

January 23, 2012

So the Dick family has been so crazy busy as of late. I feel like my life is consumed with basketball. I love it though. I am so glad my kids are so active. Jalen finishes his season tonight and Maddy has just started her season.  So I am driving around crazy dropping and picking them up at practices. I have spent a lot of hours sitting on bleachers and cheering for them. Jared played in November and December also. Jalen is so aggressive as a player and I can see him really excelling as a player as he matures. Maddy played basketball in 1st grade and that was the last time she played. Her dad told her this year she had to play a sport and she went to try outs and made the team and is a starter. I feel she will do great when she gains confidence. I sometimes catch myself questioning basketball. Like who really came up with it? Why the chose to throw a ball at a basket and hope to get it in. Haha. But anyway. Also I have seen people act so stupid at basketball games but that is a blog for another day.  So anyway at the moment I am a proud basketball mom.

Last Tuesday Jared woke up at 4am puking........... He was sick all day that day. Jalen and Maddy both had games. Staci is on seconds right now so I had the girls that evening. My dad started getting sick about 3:30pm that day as well. Well Shane stayed home with dad and Jared. My mom went to Jalens game and my sister and I went to Maddy's. Maddy's game was over she walked up and was white as a sheet and said she felt horrible. Her coach allowed her to leave and we made it home before she started getting sick. Jasmin was  the next one that evening. Katie and Elise went on a seven up, popcicle, lysol, and hand santitizer run. Then by the time they got back I was sick. Mom and Jalen came home and we had to call the ambulance to get dad he was very dehydrated and weak. The next day none of the kids went to school because Jalen woke up sick. Everyone was so sick on Wednesday. It felt like a bad night mare. But anyway I am so glad that is all past us. 

December 30, 2011

So I have been thinking a lot about New Year Resolutions and all the hype about them this time of year. I have some goals I want to set and meet this coming year but I don't know if I want to call them New Years Resolutions but I have read a lot that you should right them out and look at them daily and I will do that but I wanted to put them on here also!!! So here goes
Spend time daily doing scripture study.
Spend time daily in personal prayer.
Keep family prayer and family home evening a top priority.
Spend at least 15 minutes a day taking care of Stacy.
Do some kind of exercise daily. (Thank you WII fit)
Eat healthier.
Live more frugal.
Spend less!!!
Stick to meal planning every week.
Become more organized and stay on a schedule.
See everyone as sons or daughters of God and treat them as that.
Be more charitable.
Further my education.
Be the mom Heavenly Father wants me to be.
Ok that's a lot and I will fail on some but I want to get right back on track as soon as it happens!!!

December 16, 2011
So today is the day I turn 30!!! I was sooo worried about it and feeling old. But I don't haha. I am sick with strep throat and all the kids are sick too. This isn't the best way to celebrate anything. I am just praying that we are all feeling better before Christmas. So in my twenties a lot happened and I have learned alot! I know who I can trust and who I can't. I am very happy with where my life is now and who is in my life. I am going to make a lot of goals for my 30's and I feel that all will be well. I am so excited to see where my family will be in the next few years!!!

November 30, 2011


I know most people think I am so much older than what I really am and sometimes I feel a lot older than what I am also. But I will be turning 30 in a few weeks and I really can't believe it. Yes I had my kids young, yes my husband is ten years older than me, and yes I was only 10 when my step daughter was born. But I look back and it is all worth it. I love when people look at me and say you are not really 29. Do I look that old?? My 20's have brought so much my way. I got married, had Jared, had a bout with cancer, I was a stay at home mom, worked a full time job, became a work from home mom, and my list can go on forever. But I am so blessed for all the things I went through. I look back and I had some scary times. At one time I was so ill that I feared for my life. The doctor even told my husband and I that I was loosing so much blood a day that it was surprising I was able to function. But I am glad that is past me!! I found out who my true friends are. I am hoping my 30's are amazing! I am hoping that I will be in better health. I will be going back to school!!! I will be preparing for my kids graduations, college and my boys serving missions and possibly Maddy also. But most of all I will be serving my Heavenly Father in what He has planned for me!! I am so excited for the new adventure. Last year I said I wasn't celebrating any more birthdays. But right after I said that I had some scares with my health so I will be celebrating my birthday and will be happy I made it another year!!!

Thursday November 24, 2011

Things I am thankful for!!

My Heavenly Father
My Church
My parents
My husband
My home
My freedom
Food in my house
My furnace
The people that has came into my life this year
The words " I love you"
The bonus kids in my life
My extended family
My sister
A car
The ones fighting for my country
The ones who have came into my life this year

I probably have missed a lot but on this Thanksgiving evening I wanted to take time just to list some things I am thankful for. I am have so much gratitude for many things in my life. I am trying to be more thankful this coming year and find something to be thankful for in every situation. I hope that everyone that reads my blog will take time to think about what truly they are thankful for. May you be blessed!!

November 10, 2011

Crazy Busy Life

So I feel like I haven't blogged in a long time. I know it was last week but it feels forever ago. Things are going great for the Dick family. We are getting into a new routine with all the changes going on in world. The boys are playing basketball so we have lots of practices. Staci has a new schedule at work where she works seconds two weeks at a time and then days two weeks at a time. So when she is on seconds Jasmin and Elise are here in the evenings and spend the night. Evans mom is now working days so that has been an adjustment. Shane is working tons of hours too now so he is gone a lot but his job is going well. Both boys are doing scouts too now but they are doing them through our church. We are all adjusting to our new church and we all love it. The kids are really adjusting and learning so much and growing there.
Ok I am not liking how fast the holidays are approaching. I am sooo not ready for them to be here. This past Easter Jared has snooped through some stuff in my van and found his Easter basket stuff so this opened the door to tell our kids the truth about Santa, Easter Bunny, and Tooth Fairy. I am glad that is passed us and if I had to do it all over again we probably wouldn't have put so much emphasis on these fictional characters. Life is so much easier when we can actually talk about gifts and not have to deal with the disappointment of them not getting what they asked for. So we have discussed more about what gifts they want and if it will be able to happen. I know Shane has shown a couple things online to Jalen to see if he would actually like it before we made the purchase. I think we are going to do a family service project to help someone else out this year at Christmas so they can learn the true meaning of the Holiday. Also we are going to make some presents this year as a family. I am so blessed to have great kids who think of others before themselves.
We are also planning a vacation in the summer so if we save money at this time it will help this summer. They are soo excited to go on their first real big vacation.

October 31, 2011


I am so blessed to know such great people that have left such great impacts on my life. I am sitting here crying because I don't know what my future holds but I know Who holds it. Tomorrow evening another piece of my heart is leaving New Castle. I know its not a forever goodbye but I know I don't know when we will be able to speak to or see each other again. I know that there is a greater work for Elder Wilson in Indiana. I know that many will be blessed by his testimony. I know that he is doing great things in Indiana!! I am just being selfish and not wanting him to leave. But I am so blessed that he has brought great people into his life. I am forever grateful to him for all his sweet words and love he showed me when I wasn't very lovable. I know he stayed in New Castle so long because of me. He was meant to be with me through my journey to this point and he will be with me through the rest of my journey, it just may not be physically. I will miss him so much that I don't know at the point how I will handle it but I know my Heavenly Father has all the strength I will need during this transition time. I know letters will come and I will here from him often. I will more than likely get weekly updates about him from his amazing mom that I have now become to call my friend. I am just so thankful for his testimony and the blessings that it has had on my life. I will be forever grateful to Heavenly Father for bringing Elder Peter "Max" Wilson into my life!!!

October 16, 2011

My testimony

I was introduced to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints approximately 3 years ago.  When my husband requested a visit from the missionaries in the area. Two very sweet sister missionaries came for a visit. We had lessons with them for approximately 6 months. Then  our family started going through some issues with our oldest daughter who at the time was a 17 year old high school senior who  knew everything and no one could convince her other wise.  Also some other matters were going on in our family. So I told my husband that the sisters needed not to come back because we were perfectly ok in our church and with all the issues going on we didn’t need to confuse our children anymore.
Fast forward to earlier this year I am thinking February or March. I really can’t remember exactly what month but it was still cold out. Two Elders stopped by and started meeting with us again. Due to my husbands job he was not home except two days a week and that was Wednesdays and Thursdays. The Elders were only able to visit on Thursday evenings due to our family’s crazy schedules. But I sit on the board for a baseball leagues for adults and children with disabilities and also a committee member for Henry County’s Relay for Life. Thursday evenings were usually the night of choice for both organization’s. So a lot of times I was hit or miss on the lessons.  My husband consistently met with the missionaries and grew in understanding and wanted to know more and become a member of the church. As for me I was a Nazarene who was content, comfortable, and happy or  I thought I was happy at my church. My mindset was no one was going to convince me otherwise. At one time I did make the statement I would me a Nazarene till the day I died….. In June my husband set a baptism date. I was not happy our family had always went to church together. I didn’t want to be a wife who went to church with her kids by herself. We had already been baptized with our oldest daughter. Which was a very special event to me due to the fact that the man who baptized us was tragically electrocuted to death while trimming trees for a member of his church on July 30, 2005. I felt being rebaptized would be making a mockery of him.
The night before his baptism I told him he had to choose between his family or the church. …. I was very upset and the children and I left and went to stay at my parents house because my family was not going to attend two churches. that’s not what my family did. It wasn’t fair. That weekend was a very dark weekend for me. On the day of his baptism my phone rang and it was a former elder that had recently went home. He told me I needed to go to his baptism. He also was very reassuring and supportive to me and made sure I knew he loved me. I didn’t go to the baptism. I was a very un happy person for awhile…..
One evening the Elders stopped by and asked me if I wanted them to continue to teach me. I actually said yes…… So they continued to teach me. The whole baptism was my hang up. I didn’t want to make a mockery of my baptism. We were having a study with the Elders on September 7th and Elder Wood asked at the end of the lesson if I would kneel and pray ask if the book of Mormon was true and if Joseph Smith was a true prophet of  Heavenly father. I knelt and prayed and received my answer…. Well ok I had no idea what to do now. I didn’t know how to leave my church…. I had responsibilities and was a teacher. Well the answer began to come the next day. I was leaving my house to go to a PTO meeting. I would have usually slipped into a pair of flip flops and just went but I took the time to put my tennis shoes on. Grabbed my purse, phone, keys, and told my family goodbye and out the door I went. If you know me I rarely leave the house by myself. I have my kids with me and everyone else’s kids since I have a daycare and am always babysitting. Well I fell down 6 cement steps. I am laying at the bottom of the steps and in severe pain. I didn’t know what to do. I did have a lady stop but she wasn’t much help since she had a fear of cats and a cat was sitting on my porch.. So I start panicking and realized my phone was in my purse. So I called my husband and had him come outside. So he came out looked at me and called 911. I ended up in an ambulance and in ER. I had sprained my shoulder, my left ankle was severely sprained, my left knee was dislocated, and had a really bad abrasion on my right knee.  The elders were at our house shortly after I came home from ER to offer a blessing. This began my transition to breaking ties with my former church. I just didn’t realize it. I was unable to do anything. Moving from the recliner just to do simple things we take for granted was a major feat that would result into me being extremely exhausted. I am a very busy person and always on the go. So I really had nothing to do and I was bored so I read and I read a lot. I read a lot of the book of Mormon. It really brought great comfort to me. The church I attended was in Spiceland which is about 10 minutes from New Castle and I told my husband many times during my recovery that I felt spice land was a thousand miles away. The people I attended church didn’t seem concerned about me. It really hurt me. But the people of the branch in new castle were so awesome to help me and my family. The sisters brought meals, offered to help with my children, sent texts, called, offered to help in anyway and also visited me. During this time I felt ok with taking myself of the membership in the Nazarene church. I felt at peace with everything. The issue with my baptism weighed heavily and I did talk to the missionaries about my concern. They invited me to pray about it and I received my answer.
On October 29th which is less then two weeks myself along with three of my children Maddy, Jared, and Jalen will be baptized at 6pm. This will be an amazing evening for our family and it will be one step closer to our family being a forever family. I now know without a shadow of a doubt that Joseph Smith is the Prophet of the Restoration, The Book of Mormon is True. Thomas S. Monson is a Prophet and this church is Jesus Christ’s true church. I bear this testimony  in the name of Jesus Christ amen!!!

October 1, 2011


Today has been a Saturday that I have longed for, for a very long time. I have absolutely no where to be today! I have been able to clean as I have wanted to for a long time. I have watched t.v. when I have wanted to. I have spent time with the kids with out any other distractions. I don't get time like this often. As a mom to 4 very active kids 3 at home and 1 an hour and a half away, we very rarely have a day with no plans. Jalen, Maddy, Jared and I have spent quality time together today. We have actually accomplished a lot of cleaning today also. Which has been put off for a long time and it was much needed today. It actually looks inviting now instead of major clutter and would stress me out to even look at it. I have decided its time to get the priorities straight and get things done and keep them done. I am sad that my husband isn't here enjoying the day but I am sooooo glad he is working and its a local job. I am glad I get to see him daily. I am so happy with the things happening in our family. I am so thankful to my Father in Heaven because if it wasn't for Him where would my family be. I do not even want to know. I am so happy with the way things are going and I know that I can only thank Him. I am sooo grateful. Well I better get back to spending time with the kids

September 22, 2012

Life is full of twists!

Ok, if I make it through this blog I without crying it will be a pure miracle. Ok, so the elder missionaries from The  Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints have visited our house for a while now. Well the first couple of guys I liked but not well enough to get close to or maybe our personalities didn't mesh. Well the first transfer, one left and another came. After first I didn't like Elder Wilson. Haha he was a little ummm I don't even know how to describe him. Ha well how I tell people that Elder Wilson is Jared in 10 years. But I kinda LOVE him to death now!!! Haha 6 months later. He is such a blessing to me. Well the next transfer came around and  the other guy from the first pair left and Elder Pahl came :) He and I clicked!! I love him so much but he went home and I still communicate with him some. Then for a week Elder Doxey came to fill in for transfers. Elder Doxey is a very sweet and laid back guy. He is an amazing witness for Heavenly Father. He at transfers and went to Ball State. Our family was told on Monday that he was leaving for Ball State and that the new Elder was brand new and would be coming straight from the airport to New Castle. I was like ok I wonder how this will go.
Well let me tell you the day Elder Wood walked into my home I knew he was an amazing guy!! He was so easy to talk to. We have laughed and cried together, agreed and disagreed with each other, had fun and got serious together! I am so thankful for the time we had together. He has taught me so much as a person. He taught me I could bring down the walls I have built up from years of hurt. I am so blessed to say I know Daniel Wood!! Or family will be forever changed by his example.
He has brought a special girl into my life Hailey that I feel like I have known forever. She and I can talk like I can't with others!! She is sweet and such a blessing to me. She has helped me this week so much with his leaving. She has been there. Her situation may be a little harder but she has been so supportive. Thank You Hailey!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So Sunday evening we went to a fireside in Muncie with the Elders. Elder Wilson had taken my camera home on Saturday to charge it for me since I had lost my camera. Well we were all in the car and I turned my camera on and there was the two sweet pictures on it of each of them!! I love it and it will be pictures I cherish forever. (So I knew I wouldn't make it through this blog without crying because I can barely see to type right now). So discussion turned to the transfer calls they would be getting in the morning. We were all joking around about where they would be sent. Deep down I was praying that neither would leave. We had such a good evening with them Sunday! I am so thankful for that good evening to remember forever.
Monday morning at 6:43am I got the text saying " Elder Wood is leaving New Castle for reals". Wow I bawled immediately. Wow that is when the emotional roller coaster began...... The next thing Elder Wood said to me was this will not be goodbye forever. That has been a source of strength for me as of late.
I have cried more tears than I thought was possible the last four days. I have cried looking over texts he sent me especially the one that says "So basically I am dreading saying goodbye to your family". Breaks my heart!!
" I have learned that people will forget what said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" I sent this quote to him because it is sooo true. He kept saying we will take lots of sweet pictures. They came over Monday evening and we spent time together laughing without sadness and tears that was for later. Oh and we took sweet pictures that night!!
Tuesday, came and Tuesday was good bye day. I wrote a pretty sweet note to him and put it in a card for him and cried while I did so. Lots of tears were shed all day by me that day. I texted to make sure he knew I was praying for him because I know that we werent the only ones he was saying good bye too. He told me it was hard. I just cried for him
The time came for him to come over and say our goodbyes. Maddy comes out of her room with a card and a bracelet she made him. He comes over and thankfully no tears were shed for the majority of his visit. We took a lot of pictures our lovely photographer Elder Wilson was amazing. Then it was time for him to bear his testimony. Tear began to fall and didn't stop.  We said our "See ya later's" and he left. I had a message from Elder Wilsons mom and I texted it to him since there was no way I could tell him face to face. I cried doing so and he texted back and gave me a message for her. He then told me I could make him cry like no other person and he was thankful for me.I told him I would love him forever and he told me like wise.
Wednesday morning was the day of his leaving at this time he didn't know where he would be going to he was in Indianapolis. I texted them to tell them to have a safe trip and i loved him. The last thing he said to me was thank you and I will love you forever!! A couple hours later I get a text saying who the new elder was and of course I asked where Elder Wood went. Warsaw Indiana, well I know nothing about Warsaw Indiana. So to Mapquest I go. Warsaw is 2 and a half hours from New Castle and approx. 120 miles away......... That was hard to comprehend why couldn't he go somewhere like Ball State or Richmond????? But that wasn't Gods will for him. So let the letters begin. According to Hailey's Blog he will be home in 629 days!! Home is Idaho. But he will be visiting Indiana! And Hailey is coming too!!!
Ok so I know that the Missionaries can get alot of haters and it drives me crazy!!!! Do you realize what they do? Well let me tell you!! They leave their families when they are between the  ages of 19 and 21. They are then told they don't get to pick where they will serve their mission. And it isn't limited to the United States, its world wide. They pack their stuff say goodbye to their families. When I say goodbye they do not get to take a cell phone, they don't have facebook at all or other social networking sites to communicate with their families. They go to the MTC to train for a time then they are put on a plane and sent to where ever they are called to go. As in Elder Wood's case he was called to Indiana. They are then matched to be companions with someone they do not know!! They live together and spend all 24 hours together!! Could you imagine??? All the while they do not have tv or anything to occupy them other then studying, praying, and reading scriptures. They do not have alot of money and they only have a car every other week. The other week they are on bikes or foot and they do this in rain, snow, cold and hot weather. They spread the Word. They are only able to check email and write letters on Monday's. Oh that is the only way the can communicate with family and friends. They hope families in the church provide them meals. But that isn't always a promise. Could you do this??? I am a mom and I don't know if I could let one of my kids do this but you know I will support them if they decide to do it. With that being said instead of judging these guys when you see them out, oh and girls go on missions too, pray for them, uplift them, say positive things to them, and just be nice to them. I don't know how many times they have walked in and said a person said this or a person said that. Ugh it drives me crazy. Maybe people need to go back to the say "If you don't have anything good to say don't say anything at all" Sad thing is a lot of  SO CALLED CHRISTIANS ARE THE BIGGEST OFFENDERS. If I just offended you maybe you should get on your knees and sincerely pray!! As I will be doing as I finish this blog!
As for Elder Wood! When he was in the car leaving New Castle a piece of my heart went with him! I will love him forever and always! He will be forever in my prayers. I will see him soon and hear from him often. He changed my life and I am so grateful! He will do great things in Warsaw and his other assignments of the next 629 days!! Oh and for Elder Wilson I will probably boohoo and cry as much as I have for Elder Wood and I promise you I will have a blog dedicated just for him!! Just hopefully not in 6 weeks :)

September 13, 2011

more facebook notes

Another round of notes from facebook May 15,2009
100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag 15 people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage→ water, propel
2. Last phone call→ mom, staci
3. Last text message→ Danny, stacy
4. Last song you listened to→ God of Wonders my hubby rocks that song but I havent heard him sing in a very, dirt road anthiem
5. Last time you cried→ yesterday, yesterday

1. Dated someone twice → yea, yes
2. Been cheated on? yep, yes
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? no, probably
4. Lost someone special? yes, yes
5. Been depressed?→ yes, yes
6. Been drunk and threw up? nope, no

1. yellow
2. purple
3. pink
4. red

1. Made new friends → yes, yes
2. Fallen out of love → yes, yes
3. Laughed until you cried → yes, yes
4. Met someone who changed you → yes, yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes , yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yes, yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ yes, yes
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → all of them, most of them
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 4 is good for us, I would love to have about 3 more
10. Do you have any pets → 4 dogs, 3 dogs and 1 cat
11. Do you want to change your name → no, no
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ surprise party but was hurt really bad that day, dinner at Tommies
13. What time did you wake up today → 7:15,7:00
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → sleeping, sleeping
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → tonight, being able to walk
16. Last time you saw your father→ not sure sunday maybe, 1/2 hour ago
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → more organized, orgranized
18. What are you listening to right now → news, the fan
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom yes, yes
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → not being motivated, not being able to do anything
24. Most visited webpage → facebook, cafemom, myspace, .... face book, cafemom, hotmail

1. What's your name→ stacy
2. Nicknames→ mommy, stac
5. Male or female→ female
6-9 are missing
10. Hair color → brown
11. Long or short → short
16. Height → 5'4
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → of course. hmmmm
18: What do you like about yourself? → i am flexible on things, love for God
19. Piercings → no
20. Tattoos → not yet
21. Righty or lefty → lefty

22. First surgery → c-section
23. First piercing → ears
24. First best friends --> Staci way back at Riley
26. First sport you joined → soccer
27. First pet → dont know
28. First vacation→ FL
29. First concert → couldn't tell ya, haven't been to a whole lot, Steven Curtis Chapman
30. First crush → not really sure

49. Eating → nothing
50. Drinking → water, propel
52. I'm about to → fold laundry, lay down
53. Listening to → the tv, fan
55. Waiting for → Prom tomorrow I cant wait to see Lis in this dress and what Ashley can do with her hair, being able to walk

58. Want kids? → I am good with what I have been blessed with , If God allows it
59. Want to get married? → already am! , been there done that,,
60. Careers in mind? → not sure, EMT

68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs
70. Shorter or taller → Definitely taller
71. Older or Younger → Definitely older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both!?
73. Nice stomach or nice Butt→ doesnt matter
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant

78. Kissed a stranger → maybe
79. Drank hard liquor → yep
80. Lost glasses/contacts → yep
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → probubly
83. Had your own heart broken → yes
85. Been arrested → no
86. Turned someone down → yes
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → nope
89. Yourself → most of the time, sometimes
90. Miracles → Yes, yes have you met Jared??
91. love at first sight → no
92. Heaven → Yes
93. Santa Clause → no
95. Kiss on the first date? → depends
96. Angels → yes

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? no
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
99. Love somone right now? Yes
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? yes

September 11, 2011

What I have learned from thursday

Well Thursday what a day!!! It was like any other day until I was walking out to go to Tri's PTO meeting. My friend Cindy sent my a facebook message and said PTO tonight you going and I responded yea putting my shoes on. Most any other time I leave the house I would have just slipped my flip flops on and head out but for some reason I put my tennis shoes on. I told my family by and out the door I went. Well I have no clue how but I fell down the 6 cement steps in front of my house. I landed just as a car pulled up and asked if I was ok and I firmly said no. So she parked and came over to where I was sitting. She was like how can I help and I was like I need someone out of the house. Shen then tells me I can't go out there, I am afraid of cats and there is a cat up there. Well I am so thankful I had my phone and it was in my purse. If I would have been carrying it, it would have been broken. I had money and my keys in my hand and it landed a ways away from me. I called Shane but it took a minute to actually get him on the phone since I was in shock and couldn't get him at first. So he came out and as soon as he came out he called the ambulance since my leg just didnt look right. Well if felt like years before they got to the house. It was horrible. So anyway after a pain shot and xrays it was determined that nothing was broke but my knee was dislocated, my ankle severely sprained, and a shoulder sprain. I have a pretty deep abrasion on my other knee. And plenty of sore other body parts. I am still in alot of pain. Meds are not really helping so sleep has been my friend. It takes soo much effort to move to the bathroom then back to me my bed. I am so worn out just from that simple task. I feel so helpless and I hate depending on others. I am thankful for the ones that have brought meals over and came to pray for me. I am thankful for my friend Corey coming over to keep me company. I feel like I am in for a long recovery and it is going to take time to heal. But I am thankful for my Father in Heaven that has guided me through every step. I am thankful for his comfort when I feel alone and my friends are million miles away.

10 years

1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change, though the mountains shake in the heart of the sea; 3 though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble with its tumult. (Selah) 4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High. 5 God is in the midst of the city; it shall not be moved; God will help it when the morning dawns. 6 The nations are in an uproar, the kingdoms totter; he utters his voice, the earth melts. 7 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. (Selah) 8 Come, behold the works of the Lord; see what desolations he has brought on the earth. 9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow, and shatters the spear; he burns the shields with fire. 10 "Be still, and know that I am God! I am exalted among the nations, I am exalted in the earth." 11 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. (Selah) Psalm 46
10 years have passed and the sadness of this day is still great. I was 19 when my nation was attacked and many live needlessly lost. That day will forever be etched in my mind. I was a single mom, a student, and had a full time job. I remember waking up that morning to get ready for school. I was the only one home at the time. I turned the tv on while readying myself for class. I watched everything unfold by myself in my room by myself. I remember going to school driving down 3 and everything seemed soo still and in mourning. There were no planes in the sky and everything seemed in slow motion. When I reached school  class was cancelled so I came back to town and picked the kids up from daycare and spent the rest of the afternoon watching the events on tv. I then slept and woke up before work that night and the nightmare was still unfolding. I went to work at Arbys and it was a mad house next door at Swifty. Police were directing traffic because gas prices soared. It was so surreal. 

Ten years later the impact of this event is still heavy. My heart is heavy for all the ones who lost a loved one that day. May God bless them and the USA

August 31, 2011

Seeing how I have changed!!

Ok so I was looking through my old notes on facebook and since they are mostly survey things I wanted to see how I have changed since I posted!!
Originally posted on November 7, 2009, I am putting today's answers beside original answer

A - Age: 27 ~ 29

B - Bed size: queen ~ queen

C - Chore you hate: dishes ~ dishes

D - Dog's name: dixie,prissy,rossie ~rossie, hera, and zoey. I still have prissy but she lives with my parents its a better fit for her

E - Essential start your day item: brushed teeth ~  a fountain pop and brushed teeth

F - Favorite color(s): yellow ~ yellow

G - Gold or Silver: Silver ~ Silver

H - Height: 5'4~ 5'4

I - Instruments you play(ed): clarinet~ clarinet

J - Job title: Mommy, wife, babysitter ~ same

K - Kid(s): 3 ~ 3 by birth and 1 beautiful step daughter

L - Living arrangements: house~ house

M - Mom's name: Beth~ Beth

N - Nicknames: Mommy~ mommy, mom, stace,

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: hysterectomy, appendix, and one time before my hysterectomy when they found a mass in my intestines which ended up being a tumor in my uterus ugh, births of my children, and heart issues

P - Pet Peeve:too many, mouth noises and people who think they are better than everyone~ same as before and people chewing with mouth open

Q - Quote from a movie: not sure~ not sure

R - Right or left handed: Left~ Left

S - Siblings: 1 sister ~ 1 sister

T - Time you wake up: 7 ~ 4:30 and then again at 6;30

U- Underwear: yes thank you~ SAME AS BEFORE

V - Vegetable you dislike: idk~ onions now that I found out I am allergic

W - Ways you run late: kids not getting ready~ oversleeping

X - X-rays you've had: lots ~ alot

Y - Yummy food you make: chillis~ potato soup

Z - Zoo favorite: bear~ zebra

This one was posted July 31, 2009. Two days following my hysterectomy
1. What time did you get up this morning? 10 am~ 6:30am

2. How do you like your steak? well done~ same

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? bedtime stories ~ ummm dont remember

4. What is your favorite TV show? depends~ Secret Life

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? i am good~ Out west

6. What did you have for breakfast? cheerios~ Burger King,

7. What is your favorite cuisine? mexican ~ Mexican

8. What foods do you dislike? turkey pepperoni just had it yesterday its gross~ turkey pepperoni not too picky

9. Favorite Places to Eat? El Chiles or Gas Grill~ El Chiles

10. Favorite dressing? ranch ~ ranch

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? dodge caravan~ a van I dont like

12. What are your favorite clothes? pj's~ lounge pants

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Hawaii~ Hawaii

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? full :) ~ full

15. Where would you want to retire? no clue~ hawaii

16. Favorite time of day? evening when we are relaxing at home~ evenings

17. Where were you born? New Castle~ New Castle

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? depends on my mood and what the kids are doing~ football

19. Who do you think will not tag you back? dont know~ doesnt matter

20. Person you expect to tag you back first? not sure~ doesnt matter

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? everyone~ doesnt matter

22. Bird watcher? sometimes~ sometimes

23. Are you a morning person or a night person? both ~ depends

24. Do you have any pets? 4 dogs~ 3 dogs and a cat

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I am sooooo glad my surgery is over~ jared did well yesterday

26. What did you want to be when you were little? teacher~ teacher

27. What is your best childhood memory? being with my family~ family time

28. Are you a cat or dog person? dog ~ dog i guess

29. Are you married? yes~ yes

30. Always wear your seat belt? yes well most of the time I refused to yesterday but had a good reason~ yes

31. Been in a car accident? yes~yes

32. Any pet peeves? yes, oh yes... ~ yes

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? royal feast~ sausage, bacon, mushroom

35. Favorite ice cream? moose tracks~ moose tracks

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Arbys~ Rallys

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? none~ none

38. From whom did you get your last email? facebook~ not sure

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? no where~ Cato

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? no~ no

41. Like your job?yes~ yes

42. Broccoli? sounds good right now~ love it

43. What was your favorite vacation? Florida~ gatlinburg

44. Last person you went out to dinner with? shane~ my family

45. What are you listening to right now? my mom~ tv

46. What is your favorite color? yellow~ yellow

47. How many tattoos do you have? none~ none
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? probubly no one~ doesnt matter
49. What time is it: 1:17pm~ 1:26pm

50. Coffee Drinker? no~ no

This was posted June 13 2009
Copy & paste the survey, fill it in with your answers (finish the sentences) and tag all the friends you wanna know stuff about including the person who tagged you!

1. I have come to realize that my butt: is mine~ is there
2. I have come to realize that when I talk: someone is listening......... I hope~ that it needs to be positive

3. I have come to realize that, if I love someone: I give them my all~ I pray they love me back

4. I have come to realize that, I need: my family and friends to get through what i am going through at the moment~ I need God all the time

5. I have come to realize that, I lost: some good ppl in my life along the way~ alot of things

6. I have come to realize that, I hate it when: my house is messy~ my house is messy

7. I have come to realize that, if I’m drunk: it doesnt help the situation~ I am in big trouble

8. I have come to realize that, marriage: is a give and take relationship~ can be hard at times

9. I have come to realize that, work: is not only a paid job~ is more than a paid job

10. I have come to realize that, I will: feel alot better soon~ get things done

11. I have come to realize that, I like: to spend time with my kids~ alot of things

12. I have come to realize that, the last time: I went to the hospital I realized that I need to take more time for myself~ I ate made me feel horribe

13. I have come to realize that, my cell phone is: in my pocket~ is pink

14. I have come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: I need more sleep~ I have to get 5 kids out the door

15. I have come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night: I tell my family I love them~ I pray

16. I have come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: when my daughters will be home I miss them~ feeling better

17. I have come to realize that, babies: are a gift from God~ are a gift from God
18. I have come to realize that, when I get on Facebook: it gets addicting~ I can connect to people I haven't seen in a long time

19. I have come to realize that, today I will: get my washer back~ clean

20. I have come to realize that, tonight I will: spend time with my kids~ spend time with my kiddos

21. I have come to realize that, tomorrow I will: go to church and praise God~ go to Jalen's football game

22. I have come to realize that, I really want to: get well~ go on vacation

23. I have come to realize that, working out: is going to have to be a must in my life~ I need to get back on a routine

24. I have come to realize that, friends: are something I need~ are always there

25. I have come to realize that, the person who might repost this is: hmmm not sure...~ it doesn't matter

Ok I am bored with this!!! I will do more later

August 25, 2011

Pondering life circumstances

Eight years ago I was scheduled to have my tubes tied after Jared was born. I had to wait to have it done due to insurance procedure so I couldn't have it done while in surgery when Jared was born. I had to wait so many weeks after Jared's birth. Well during that time I really prayed about this decision and the Lord told me not to do it. So I cancelled my surgery. I then felt after prayer I was going to have another child.

A couple years later I had two miscarriages. This was a very trying time in my life not understanding the reasons why this was happening. At this time I was ready for another child but it wasn't His timing. This was so difficult to understand.

Then I was having major problems with my cycle. I had a lot of pain and heavy cycles. I made an appointment to see my doctor and he was like you have some fibriod tumors but since I was so young he said he wasn't going to do anything about them and I should be fine. Well the whole issue went on for a couple years and it got really bad to the point I wouldn't leave home during the week every month.

March of 2009, I thought I was just starting my cycle on spring break. Well that cycle never ended or what I thought was a cycle. I went to ER a couple times because I was very week and in a lot of pain. One of the ER visits they found a mass but they said it was in my intestines. So that was very scary!!! Thankfully I had friends supporting me and telling me I need answers. One friend gave me the number to the doctor that did her hysterectomy. Well we called him and at the time I had no insurance so he wouldn't see me but his office gave me a number of another doctor. So we called Dr. Lugo and he would see me. This is in late June of 2009. He did an ultrasound in his office and said that I had multiple fibriod tumors in my uterus and one had actually grew through my uterine wall and it was very large. He said there was no way of saving my uterus and that I would need surgery to remove the uterus and tumors. This is what was causing my bleeding. He told me my body was producing 10 units of blood daily and I was probubly losing 8 units daily. No wonder I was feeling horrible.

So now I was really confused to why I wasn't to have the surgery in 2003. I was devastated that I was not going to be able to have another child. But I serve an amazing Lord who knows why this happened.

July 29, 2009, Shane drove me to St. Johns in Anderson to have my surgery. This day was a relief in a sense and a sad day also.  But I serve an Awesome God and he would see me through all of my trials. But after surgery I began to grieve and ask why a lot. I still have days I don't understand and it is overwhelming to not know what good came out of this. I still want another child. People say to me well if God wants you to have another child He will make it possible. Which I know is true but its hard to see this. But I know now that there is a way that when the tumors were found that they could have been taken care of and I could have had a chance of having another child. I just don't understand.

I am also thankful for the children I do have and they are a blessing from God!!!

August 23, 2011

Come to Me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

I am to a point that I am so weary and tired. I have lived with a broken heart for awhile now. My heart hurts and I am tired. My joy is gone. I hate living like this and I don't what to do. I love my Lord with all my heart and I know this is a test of my faith. My faith has been criticized a lot lately. I am human I fall but I get back up. I need so much and I feel so alone. I just need to rest in my Saviors arms.

August 21, 2011

New Week!!!

I have had so much anxiety lately. Maybe it is because I am trying to get back into the swing of things with babysitting full time again, school being back in session and so on. But I think a lot of it has to do with personal issues and other things life threw my way. I have been really sick lately and its really bringing me down. I am dealing with a new allergy to onions of all things. Well it seems everything has onions or onion powder in it. This is extremely hard to deal with. Today I found out that spaghetti sauce has onions in it. I love spaghetti.

I know there are huge mountains in the coming week but I am putting all my trust in HIM who is my Comforter and Peace Speaker to see me through and help me through each situation that is coming my way. He is my All and All. I know He will see me through life's circumstances.

Today has been a hard day for Jared. He was sitting in church having chest pains.This is very scary for a parent because I don't know what to do. He has a deformed chest and the cardiologist said he may have pain from it when he grows but it could also cause pain if it doesn't grow out and there isn't enough space. So we have been watching him today and having him rest as much as possible. If he isn't feeling better tomorrow we will call the doctor and go from there. That is unless things get worse tonight we will head to the ER.

Today we celebrated Jalen's 13th with my parents, grandparents, sister, Shane, Lis, Bradley, Jalen, Maddy, and Jared. We had a good dinner and I think he had a good birthday. His sister and Bradley really made it awesome by getting him a new purdue shirt and water bottle. Then Jalen and Bradley went to Walmart and got ammo for Jalens gun. Bradley just transferred to Purdue so we will get to see him more. He is a great guy and not only does he treat Lis good he is good to her family. I am so thankful for him being in our lives. Lis starts her second year at Purdue tomorrow!!!!! I really can't believe this because it seems like just yesterday we were celebrating her 13th birthday!!

I am so thankful for all the positives in our lives right now but there is a lot that I pray God moves in!! But its not Stacy's timing its His timing. So I will continue to pray and trust in Him through all the storms.

I was sure by now 
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I'm with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I'm with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of Heaven and Earth

August 16, 2011

First day of school 2011!!!!

The first day of school for 2011 is one for the history books!!!! We had a great morning none of the 5 children fought about getting up and getting ready!! They were fed, dressed, three girls with fixed hair, 5 kids with brushed teeth, and lunches in tow were out the door at 7:20am!!!! They all stood under the tree for the annual first day of school picture. Off to the two schools to drop off the kids and no tears or attitude!!! That is a success!!

This was the first year all 5 were in school all day and it was soooooooooooo weird to come home to an empty house. So I tried to take a nap and it didn't work so well. But it was nice to just be home and not have to watch Sponge Bob or I carly or anything. There wasn't 4 tv's on and the kids weren't fighting over the computer!!! But I will tell you I missed them soooo much.

2:30pm rolled around and I was so ready to head to Westwood and get the girls and off to Tri to get Jared and Maddy. Well we came up on 100 S. to the school and there was a huge line.............. Well  we didnt end up in the parking lot till after 3......... Not good when I needed to be 10 miles south at Tri at that time...... So I call my mom and was like this is so crazy and Jareds going to hate me. She then says have you thought about calling your dad he is at grandma and grandpas.... Two minutes from Tri!!!!! What was I thinking why didn't I think of that......... Well dad went to get the kids and Jared didn't hate me!!!!

I am so glad they all had an awesome day and everyone adjusted well to the new schedule and I am blessed!!!!

I am hoping tomorrow is just as good!!!!!

Monday, August 8, 2011

Hello Monday!!!!

Well I am pretty sure everyone's prayers worked!!! I have felt so much better today!!!! I have gotten a lot done and feeling pretty good about it!! I am trying to get so much done before the kids go back to school. I am so excited the girls are coming back tomorrow. The girls are Jasmin and Elise. I have babysat them for 5 years and they are very special to me. Their mom Staci broke her foot at the beginning of the summer so she hasn't been able to work so they have had their summer with their mom and I have had the summer with my kids. Its been really weird not having them around. Staci has an appointment tomorrow so they will be here in the afternoon for a while then they come back full time Thursday!!!

Another new normal in our family is volleyball Monday!!!! We play volleyball with the LDS Elders on their P day!!! They have become like family to us. Today was transfer calls and I was worried they were going to get transferred BUT they didn't!!!! Today Lis was able to join us for the game which was awesome!!! Elder Wood and Elder Wilson are great guys and both have a special place in my heart. There was another one here before Elder Wood and he was awesome to and I love him very much!!! I miss him but I know their is a plan. I am so blessed to know them!!! So we have one Monday left before school starts so not sure what will happen after next week with our volleyball monday.

Jalen had his first football practice for the 7th grade team. He said all they did was sit in the locker room. He was talking about the drum corp that is practicing at Tri!!! He was like one guy drove all the way from Washington. It was funny the way he was talking about them.

I have some major mountains I am praying about right now!!!! I know God will take care of our family but its so hard when you are at the foot of the mountain.

Sunday, August 7, 2011


"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28

I have been dealing with some kind of sickness or bug for 5 days now. I don't know what is going on but I just don't feel good. I am hoping just staying on the couch today and not doing anything will help. I keep looking around thinking this needs to be done or that needs to be done. I just got to keep telling myself it will be here tomorrow. I hate missing church today but I need to rest. I have been on the go all week and that hasn't helped the situation of being sick. 

Yesterday was the second Saturday of Miracle League! I love this league so much and I have learned so much just from being involved. My kids love it and they are learning life lessons. It is truly a miracle to see each game. The players are so excited each game. 

School starts soon for the kids!! This week has been very trying for all of us. I think alot has to do with me not feeling well. Jared will be in 3rd grade... Wow it feels like it was just yesterday I was sitting by his crib in the NICU. He is my Miracle baby and I thank God for him each day. He has taught me so much in life. And his life has truly taught me how to put all my trust in God. From the day after he was born and he was whisked away from my arms to an ambulance to be transported 45 minutes away to an Indianapolis hospital with his dad following behind him. To the doctors telling Shane he wouldn't make it through the night that same day. All the while I lay in a hospital bed in New Castle fighting my own battle to get my blood pressure down. He has caused many scares in his 8 years of life from choking on a quarter, getting his finger almost cut off in a bike chain and Staci and I having to call the paramedics because we couldn't do anything to get it out and they get there and search for tools on my dads tool bench, him diving off the top bunk of his Jalen's bunk beds and we were thinking he broke his neck and actually he broke his arm. The last one was when the school called this year and told me I needed to come pick him up because he needed to go to the hospital because he fell off the top of the slide at recess......... I love that kid. 

Jalen will be 13 this month. I cant believe this at all. It feels like it was just yesterday I was that pregnant 16 year old lost in this crazy world dealing with adult decisions as a child myself. Living a very crazy life. BUT I am survivor and I love Jalen and I am so proud of the young man he has become. He loves God and he loves helping others. He is just like his momma. He starts football for the 7th grade team tomorrow. I know he will do awesome in Junior High.

Maddy is going to be a 6th grader!!!! She is as tall as me and I am not sure when this happened. I am so proud of all she is doing in life. She has a project at the state fair!!!!!! She puts 100% in all she does!!! She will do amazing things!!!

This will be Lis' second year at Purdue!!!! I am so proud of her. It feels like it was just yesterday she came into my life!!! She will also do amazing things in her life. 

This week is going to be devoted to getting back into a routine and getting organized for school to start!! Oh and the girls come back this week to and we have missed them alot. So I am heading back to the couch and resting!!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Distraction, Distraction, Distraction

I have tried so hard to work on my goal but I have been so distracted. I know its the works of the enemy. I am just trying to pray against it. Like right now Maddy is yelling at me to answer a question about 4H after I told her I need her to do it on her on. Jared has the couch tore apart and I have no idea why. I am praying for God to help me through this time and help me to understand Him and His Word. I pray my reading will go smoother from now on.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Day 1!!!

I am so thankful for Gods word!!! I read Genesis 1-16 and though I have read some of these chapters over and over again I always get a refreshed view on it. I am always in awe that the Lord that created the universe did it with me in mind.  Also to think He spoke and things happened. It makes me just stand in awe of Him. 
Today is Monday Shane is heading back to work and the kids have VBS and 4H judging this week. Its gonna be a busy week for us but I am blessed to be able to spend so much time with my kids!!! 

Lord, Thank You for Your Blessings. I am thankful for you beautiful word that you have given to us. I pray this week will be smooth and a blessing to me. I pray for Jalen as he just doesn't understand the loss of Tracy. Lord touch him and comfort him. I pray you will bring comfort to all of us because she was such a blessing to our family. I am so thankful for you Amazing Love. In your beautiful name. Amen

Sunday, July 10, 2011

New at this!!

Welcome to my blog!! I have been wanting to start blogging for a long time. Tomorrow I am beginning to work on my goal of reading the Bible in 90 days!! I feel like my priorities have been messed up this summer so I am going to work on getting things back to the way they should!